and did not start until now, none came into any email box of mine at all.
any
to me that is the very meaning of theft.
the new webvirus is but part of the problem, i am referring to the one where
visiting any website by the thousands now is a sure sign of a virus. losing
an untold amount of information today is also a sign that a massive system
wide internet breakdown is headed our way.
seriously,
you can blame either the barnstable police, willis of barnstable housing
authority, shane kelly, leonda mahler, anna durkin and or a psychiatrist,
janet and or chris morris. all i did was came to this group and asked
anyone of you call me, make the landline ring, it didn't. the question was
to you, how to keep a nation from losing its self control, bodily self
control when faced with the enormisity of the very information about this
song and what it means to the 9/11/01 investigation and to the people in
this nation, the u. s. a. and around the world.
it happened yesterday when i watched a man choke on his own spit when
listening to the song while realizing it is what i say it is. it isn't a
matter of power display to hurt someone it is a matter of how to keep people
from all out rioting and worse
my own wife won't even talk with me in here and it is her that i asked to be
by my side now despite how we do and do not relate as husband and wife but
as two people interested in keeping peace here and it is from here like
anyone else it could be kept.
we are looking at a serious nationwide internet outage affecting the very
core components of inforation technologies that willl bring out economic and
emotional ruin for millions.
read well stranger
in my time, i've come to despise psychiatrists, psychologists for a good
reason., i am quite serious about everything ive come to know of those of
whom i had to deal with face to face once a week. for me to sit here and
tell you that when asked what do i do with myself and respond in complete
truth of my jobs etc, only to be told ive got a mental illness to me is an
absolute travesty to me, its like being waylaid and nobody around not giving
any consideration to the mere possiblity that i wasn't. even to this day
although my wife says to my face she dont believe i am, she does turn right
around and say opposite
i am faced with a serious problem here and im writing here publically to you
in hopes that any one of you who is young, open minded and got some time
outside of school and or work who will chat with me about some seriously
serious subjects on a not a patient to doctor/student level is exactly why i
write. this must be done in person here on cape cod and mighty soon too.
it is this very fact i write of but i will put some perspective on this
first
last weekend a young nubile and intelligen albiet drunk young woman knew me
on site and literally would not bring up the subject she is studying which
is psychology because she knew of what i wrote in here and elsewhere. she
literaly said to me "well go to new york" when i told her that i'd like to
be in new york but yet i was plainly in my opinion there to chat with her.
as if she thought i was not present there at all to some extent. she
literally broke down crying for a simple reason and that reason is, i am
faced with the fact that this here nation caught quite by suprise was
knocked down, bloodied and battered badly september 11, 2001. she was ready
to walk away from her boyfriend for she took me and my wife towards my car
as if she were to go with us to our home (she never did).
my fact is i did create some music that went worldwide by august 30, 2001.
it did make it to some seriously connected people who were at the time and
are that established within the pentagon as private contractors and now even
part of the secret service (and that i was told by a motorist passing by
yelling at 60 + mph two weeks ago) this music is like being inside any one
of those jets through the span of under 7 minutes from beginning to end. i
have yet to seriously analyze this music with anyone aside from my wife and
a former friend note for note. yesterday i stunned a man to almost
completely changing his demeanor and watching him choke on his own spit when
he heard this music and he was a complete stranger. the other facet to all
this is that while that music was made, i was being told my wife was with
another man at my own home. this music was made adlib, freestyle and due to
some of the very actions going on where i was at the time too, they were
inspiration. i have been told to my face that i had been tranquilized for
15 years yet until 2000 i was not diagnosed with schizophrenia.
to this day i totally dismiss that diagnosis yet each day i bring it up
constantly as if i oughta be speaking elsewhere. thursday some children
walked up towards myself and there on main street i ended up realizing that
i had been making not only those children laugh hysterically but others as
well just by being serious and somewhat lighthearted about the history of
computers, present time of computers and the future of computers and how the
body can heal itself. my wife was totally incensed with the idea that all
that was what she had been trying to convince me of for a long time. yet
between us, it is i telling her literally, not to be trying to convince me
of anything, take care of herself first. our own problems have to be dealt
with and between when we first married even to this day the ability to be
as only we truly can be is a daily dilemna that is the catalyst for what we
do get done. as if our lives could be turned around dramatically if we did
live as each other thinks of ourselves to be. i'm left with the thought
that it is not mental illness but its a matter of heart. i could go on
about every minute detail about myself, her wrongs, my wrongs and the very
essence about good and bad parts to our relationship and how to ammend them
yet so little gets done. it is that "his opinion, not living it" she knows
and vice verca.
anyways, the fact about that music, the total power it has just played and
easily explained as i have in a seriously done this many a time way "these
are the facts" that i am able to do that leaves me with quite the few
questions to ask you in person, anyone that will meet with my wife and i in
person here in hyannis and soon out of office. it was last week the 9/11
investigations were front page as to the investigations are still in
progress and i have yet to read about this song, the story in any newspaper
or t. v. myself. i have heard howie carr via his radio show state my name
recently but the story was not told. he obviously read some of my online
material. then i've not told this story nationwide either and came home to
watch a vcr tape.
its not just this music, 9/11/01 that is something about psychiatry i do
want to chat with you about, its the entire adult industry utilized by
psychiatry. believe me, it has in massachusetts hospitals, i was there. in
my humble opinion, it the very essense of relating between a married couple,
boyfriend - girlfriend, casual date that is each particular reason that
built the reasons for 9/11/01.
so easy to write all that, a different story living.
no doctors office wanted.
one too many no direct response emails, they've in my opinion left
elsehwhere.
i should've been flooded with them since 9/12/01.
here is what i've left for the public around the world recently about that
song.
my name is in the hyannis area verizon phone book, please call and call
today.
--leonda (i'm coming home)--
august 2001
i'm comin' home,
i've been here before
it's been a long, long road,
traveled many times, times
been walking miles trying to find my lady
i love her so, dearly so
she's got my heart,
keeps the child in me
my guiding light,
she sets, sets me free
i'm coming home,
today,
traveled that walk
happy as I could ever be
i thank you,
with all my heart
just where to begin,
I know that love will never depart
these many oceans are filled with tears
Cry for centuries, happiness and fear
i think it's time,
i bring up my anchor
paddle on,
to a distant shore,
somehow, someway,
i'll make it home,
what my love will say,
I'm countin' on
So many times,
i've crossed the lords path
i might have forgiveness,
just from where I'm at
now I don't know about you
you had your time,
you made it through,
somehow, someway
you might, may find
something beyond,
that love be so blind
may the sand,
flow through your fingers
and when that crow flies,
it'll guide you on
somehow, someway
i am coming home again,
i'm coming home again,
to my love,
my one true friend
i'll make you happy,
i know I'll make you cry
I'll give you my love,
all the time
when we're alone,
with the spirits who listen and talk
we may decide,
on our eternal walk
someday our child,
one or two
will know at least your love
and what i will put you through
under our roof,
massive or small,
with a fire burning,
and as our child crawls
we'll sing together,
country and blues
you lead the way
i'll try my best to satisfy
you
woman leonda
i am coming home
to you
i hear what i refer to as listening to
the whine of a jet, i hear the voice of mine potraying what it was like
inside those jets, brief moments from each jet from beginning to impact.
the only difference between the original audio and now is the volume
was turned up from the original audio and that does have the exact same
sounds. you think an award for that song oughta be presented? you think it
oughta
be covered with dance? you think it oughta have any other form of music
involved? you think it oughta be rerecorded? as if it is now a weapon
against violence? that has been suggested to me and i'm telling you here
and now i do not authorize it nor condone it either, not now, not ever.
---june 25, 2004---
i'll tell you now, francis scott key was literally in a battlefield with
total violence unlike any other at the time when the star spangled
banner was written. my song was created in a small
coffee house during *peace* time. this song was in the possession
of anyone who decided to download it within
24 hours, August 30, 2001. Janet E. Morris, my wife Leonda's
aunt was known for sci - fi fantasy writing and that requires
visionary experiences, remember the communicator of Star Trek, now known as
the cell phone, Gene Roddenburys creative design?
Mrs. Morris and Christopher Morris (some people tbink he looks like the Edge
Of U2 and he does play electric guitar) had created
"The 40 Minute War" long before Bill Clinton was President.
mrs. morris had total access to some of the "deepest" parts of the pentagon
prior to 9/11/01 meaning, she was a protege to a former cia deputy director
who served president kennedy the cuban missile photos himself. she was
raised a few miles from the kennedy compound. every few weeks i read or
hear or view stories about 911 inquisitions about what was and what not
known ahead of time and in my opinion, the song alone was heard by anyone
'round the world inluding the pentagon long before 9/11 so why so many
questions? that is why i called the white house. unless i totally missed
the story of the century, it hasn't been in the front pages yet yesterday a
man from nyc with a fire department t-shirt on with his child and his wife,
he just about melted me with this wet big eyed and blue friendly smile like
his wife and child. sorry for the non existant outward response but it was
proof positive to me it was heard about at the least. to be quite honest
i've not "exploded" in outright grief yet, that day is coming yet for over 2
years it has been a factor amongst many emotions.
and btw, to that woman and man out there that dares even think they don't
know where i live here in hyannis who do come into this area when my wife
leonda and i are going out or even in the same parking lot as him/her, ya,
you should've come directly to us without question face to face and
introduced yourselves plain and simple.
and anyone up here in hyannis from nyc, please come and see us, craigville
beach at night is where we usually are and our names leonda and
william mahler are in the verizon local phone book.
or come here and ring our buzzer, no one after 6 pm please.
My "secret" to this song, it's simple, listening to those around me, in the
same establishment, not for the exact words straight from their vocal chords
but by their actions and with the idea that i'd create a song without any
words like type or print in mind or in ear or in view in anyway,
not even during the actual creation but by
spirit, living spirit alone. I did have a stage time
established earlier that day. If you are new to ths story or not, I don't
mind repeating it again, just not living the experiences of what it took
leading up to and during the creation of the song ever again.
A second song, "Got Me Worldwide" was following the song and the entire
performances start to finish are safely kept in many places around the
world. This version is from my equipment with
the small left right radio shack microphone, built more for speech than
music and a sony minidisc recorder placed behind me on the floor close to
the store front window with traffic close by.
this song is about 9/11/01 but it took awhile after 9/11/01 to begin to
listen to it with that perspective, from my vantage of knowledge. During
that time, it was in the possession of anyone in the world.
The scenarios i've yet to hear and see in full myself is inside the jets
from audio and video. Yes the imagination does provide but to witness
externally is an entirely different vantage point. At least for myself
it gives room for acceptance. Leonda was not at the coffee house that
night, she was home and not by herself. I've not seen any pictures and or
video from that night, August 29, 2001 at the Prodigal Son of Hyannis, MA.
I've heard from many a persons my voice was total strength of persona that
night, it is full of weakness as well in my opinion. If there is or isn't
any similarities to Bruce Springsteen in your opinion, listen to "Drive All
Night", and or "Fade Away" both from "The River" and "I'm On Fire" from
"Born In The
U. S. A.".
It is the vocal performance of Springsteen that became a basis for my
performance that night and I repeat, not a direct source for words
for there are none in any similarity to "Leonda (I'm Coming Home)". The MP3
here is edited yet the song and amplitude are in tact and louder, the
original was recorded with recording levels approx 50% of the full available
set to manual instead of auto. Sound Forge 5 from (then) Sonic Foundry has
been the editor of choice
then and now. A new "star spangled banner"? not at all. Believe me, I
called the White House last night and spoke with an operator who rang in
less than 5 rings, "good evening, white house" for that was my first call
ever. There were more pops in that phone call via cell phone that i have
yet to count. I am coming to the World Trade Center site for the 1st time
ever for July 4th with myself driving my own car (if God has his way).
I've heard that all festivities are already settled and that was long before
I called the New York Port Authority June 22, 2004. I've got some family
that does work within the taxi business, maybe I might just have a easier
ride. If you are wondering why this took so long, many a time my
imagination sees myself there then and even now.
http://www.mahlers.com/leondaimcominghome.mp3
i am coming home again
i am coming home again
i am coming home
to you
tower one
tower two
pentagon
pennsylvania
http://www.mahlers.com
W. K. Mahler
William K. Mahler
and
Leonda K. Mahler
william